Before I started blogging I was addicted to conversations with people in foren. It was our dear fin who introduced this blogging thing to me, and as most of you know, I have been a very active and advid blogger. Since the JS crash, things have changed and part of the blogging experience has lost it's charm.... and not only for me, but for many others.
I have noticed a few of my favorite people disappearing. Not too long ago, I noticed that TuesdayPillow had deleted her journal, and today I discovered that TheLioness, Carla, has deleted hers. She at least still has her profile up, but her blog is gone. We have gone through so much together and I miss her clever and honest words.
I have gained a lot from blogging, both from reading and from the excercise of writing. I always wanted to write, but I never had the talent for words that some of you people have. Yet reading your entries has made my own writing better... at least I feel it has.
Some of you write daily.... I never did. I usually write once or twice a week, trying to put as much in one short entry so that my journal stays interesting. My main interest was in reading about what you all had to say.... and when people don't update, I worry (*wink* to Betty) or get sad. Many of you have become a part of my life.
And some of you I have had the priviledge of meeting in person. And it is some of those who are no longer updating.... and it feels to me like a family member having left me and makes me VERY sad.
I have also noticed many writing in facebook. Sorry, but I just can't get excited about posting there and I especially don't have time to accept all the plants and animals for my farm! LOL
Blogging is an egoistic excercise, too, and I'll be the first to admit that yes, I also blog for the feedback. I do get many comments, and I appreciate EVERY SINGLE ONE. Yet I'm missing some (former) regular readers.... and I ask myself if they care anymore.....
I still enjoy reading so many of you, but I may not be blogging as much myself. I do have things/ideas to write about, but my motivation is down.
I told myself the other day to try to stop commenting, just read and go on, like many others do. But I'm the #1 comment whore (though I think Xanadu beats my record LOL), and I can't help but comment, so you'll still see me around.
One thing that I have been thinking of lately was all the "good" in my life. Many of you often say in a comment, how "blessed" I am. Yes, I am blessed. My life has been full and exciting. My kids are healthy, my grandkids are healthy, I have a good paying job (yet very stressful)... I have little to complain about, especially when compared to what I often read here. It breaks my heart to read about some of the hardships some of you are going through.....
Where is this entry going? I don't know. No, I don't intend to delete... not yet anyway. I usually try to keep my entries up-beat, to be entertaining.... I want to spread smiles.
I just read an entry by someone that really brought tears to my eyes. I think I'm going curl up in my bed and read a book... I have many crying out to me to read. Yep, that's what I'm going to do.
But you know, I won't be gone for long.... tomorrow morning I'll be around again looking for up-dates!
Dorrie / Westy